Rejection

(Originally posted on my other blog/Posted 2/11/10)

I just have to say I hate rejection. I hate rejection. I have a male friend that I just adore and I assume the feeling is mutual. We are both married. He loves his wife and kids, and I adore them as well. And I love my husband and kids, and he adores them as well. However, for that last 14 years we have gotten closer and closer each year. So close that at some point each year we have to take a break from each other. Not because we get on each other's nerves, but I think there is a fear of getting to close to each other. There is never any discussion about it, at some point we just step away from each other. It is never mutual. This time it wasn't me, and I am concerned about the time it is taking to reconnect. I just tried to text him and his response was not what I expected. We worked in the same professions until last year when he was forced into retirement by a bad experience. I am concerned that he is wanting to avoid me so he doesn't have to think about what he had at work and what he lost. The response to my text message has me thinking that he really has purged me from his life and I am heart broken. I hate rejection. I hate rejection.